Never Again.

Its amazing how fast your feelings can change.

Like when you're watching a movie. From the very first scene you've got your heart set on the hero. Dah la comel, tinggi, kacak, bergaya plak tu. Then you get to the middle of the story where the hero can't be with the one he loves for some dramatic reason, and you just cant help but cry to see him hurt so bad. and the feeling you have for him grow stronger. and then tiba2 came the scene where the one he loves opens the door to find him in bed with someone else, and just like that all this feelings you have for him crash to the floor into a million pieces. you'll say cis bedeb, to think that i wasted my tears over you...you...you....sonofastarfish. Then all of a sudden all that love turns into hatred.

It really is amazing how fast your feelings can change, kan.

Wild World.

"Oh baby baby it's a wild world,

It's hard to get by just upon a smile"

Something scares the stars out of me lately. It's the fact that:

You can raise a child with every love in the world, u can raise them in every way right, you can raise them strict or raise them like a hippy, you can mold them to be just like you or you can brought them up any way you want to. You can do the very best you can, yet at 24 if they decide to walk into a bar and get drunk, or get themselves a tattoo, or runaway with a men they hardly knew, you wouldn't even have a clue about it, and get this, there's nothing you can do to stop it.

You can give a child just about everything he wants, shoes, toys, clothes, expensive gadgets, trip around the world, you can make sacrifices, you can give them everything you have and find more to give, you can stay up the whole night nursing them when they were little, you can shower them with gifts and attention, yet at 18 if they decide to raise their voice to you, hurt your feelings and make you cry, well they would do it without even thinking twice.

And it applies to every kind of relationship too. Be it between families, friends or even lovers. You can give your heart and soul to someone, do just about anything they want you to, you can bend over backwards to help them in every possible way you can imagine, you can embrace them as one of your own, you give them only the best and nothing less, but tomorrow if they decide to walk away from u, they would, without even a backward glance.

It's a cruel, cruel world out there people.

I'm hiding under my comfy blankie until the world makes sense again.

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Can I Trust You With My Heart?

I think I understand now what Harry meant when he told Sally,

"When you realized you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." From the movie When Harry Met Sally.

It's nice when you have a picture of someone in your mind when you think about marriage. About who you would want to grow old with.

But it's even much nicer,

to have that person that you are picturing of in your mind, have a picture of you in his mind too :)

by Travis Tritt

When you meet that certain someone

You've been searching hard to find

It's a new love full of passion

That can sometimes make u blind

I don't mind being swept away

If I know right from the start

So before we go much further

Can I trust u with my heart?

In the times we've spent together

I have learned to trust in you

So many things you've given me

Before I even asked you to

But reality and romance

Can sometimes fall apart

So what I really need to know is

Can i trust u with my heart?

Can I cast my cares upon you?

Can you stand the heavy load?

Can I count on u to walk me

Down that long and winding road?

If you promise me these simple things

I can guarantee

You can always count on me.

When two hearts solely surrender

And are sworn to understand

It completes a perfect union

Between a woman and a man

So please don't misunderstand me

I dont want to go to far

Without knowing just one answer

Can I trust you with my heart?

Yesterday.

"Who do you think you are,
Running round leaving scars..."
- Christina Perri -

Looking back, if I could choose the best age to be in, it would be when I was 5 years old, when life was all about cartoons and candies.

Back then, I had no bad thoughts about anyone.

I wanted to be friends with everyone.

I played, I laughed, I drew, I coloured.

I ran, I fell, I cried, I got better.

I wasn't paranoid, or prejudiced.

Nor was I depressed. I was just naive.

I even shared my bekal roti that my mom made for me with a boy I hardly knew.

Wait, maybe that was when I made my first mistake,

my first wrong turn,

which brought me to where I am today.

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Save The Last Dance For Me.

Tiba-tiba tringat this one korean or japanese series i watched a couple of years back. It was about this girl who has a crush on this boy, and she pretended to be a boy just to get herself into that all boys school the guy was in. Eventually another guy fell for this girl (typical i know) and there's this one scene the girl was crying because the boy she likes hurt her feelings (i know, i know) and the guy who likes her saw this (obviously right) and quietly hugged her with a "ces lelaki macam tu jugak yang ko nak, aku kan ada" look on his face and lastly he said macho-ly to her,

"Depend on me. I dont care who you love, i love you. Just depend on me."





Blurgh.

She Believes In Me.

by Ronan Keating

While she lays sleeping,
I stay out late at night and play my songs
Sometimes all the nights can be so long
And its good when I finally make it home, all alone.

While she lays dreaming,
I touch her face across the silver light,
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky,
And she wakes up to my kiss and I say it's alright,
And I hold her tight.

And she believes in me,
I'll never know just what she sees in me,
I told her someday if she was my girl,
I could change the world, with my song,
I was wrong.
And she has faith in me,
And so I go on trying faithfully,
Forever in my heart she will remain,
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way...

While she lays waiting,
I asked myself why do I hurt her so,
What called me on this long and lonely road
Why dont I turn around and head back home, where I belong.

While she lays crying,
Because she knows my heart is ripped in two,
I'm torn between the things that I should do,
She deserves it all, and I'd give it if I could,
God her love is true.

Momma Said There'll Be Days Like This.

"I remember you
Driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes u laugh
When u know you're bout to cry
I know your favorite songs
You tell me all your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me."
-taylor swift-

You know you're a medical student about to lose it when you woke up in the middle of the night with a sudden sharp pain to your lower right abdomen, and the first thought that came to your mind is
"Oh no, I can't afford to have appendicitis right now, I have case reports and exams this week"

and just like all those sleepless night u had when your heart is killing u,

you lay there quietly in the still of the night,

hoping to God that the pain would just go away.