Invisible.

an insignificant speck,

that's what i am.

the girl behind the scene,

a prop on the stage,

a tree among trees,

people hardly notice,

but it doesnt mean i dont.

eventhough im invisible to u

my feelings are not.

i hurt, cry, laugh, love.

im just like u

but not.

i might be worthless to the rest of the world

but all i want to be is something, anything in your heart.

so why dont u stop and look around

it's the trees that makes the scenery

it's the prop which makes the set beautiful

it's me who wants to love you.

let me,

love you.

-chloe-
28.11.2009

Twilight.

"You can't break up with me. You're my bestfriend." - Twilight New Moon.

deym.

Confessions Of A Broken Heart.

The RULES:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italic the statements that you WISH are true.
The LIST to Bold/Italic/Just-let-it-be:

I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of magazines.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I want to cut my hair.
I have at least one sibling.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I'm happily married
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends’s ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys (on TV).
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pickup things with my toes
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Happy Birthday!

My mom turns 52 today. Happy Birthday Mak, I Love You.

http://russblogsagain.blogspot.com/2009/11/omg-shes-52.html

I've Got A Crush On You.

before that let me just say,

i have decided that,

it's your lost.
=.=

nowwww, i am so excited to tell that

i have a crush on someone <3

heeee, its been soooo long since i last had a crush on someone! :->

its an innocent-still-under-control-not-that-anything-can-happen-anyway thing, dont worry :))

i wish faraha is here, so that we can go stalk him together :D

imagine how a person can change ur day totally around :-O

at 9 am i feel like punching someone's face X-(

at 12pm i'm at the top of the world at the sight of him :x

okei i know, super ewww right, i feel like a high school girl again, all giddy and grinning. but let me be. i need this distraction to live. :-B

hey, thx for crossing my path today...

God knows how much i needed it :)

What Do You Get When You Fall In Love?

friends of ours ended their relationship recently.

they've been together for 3 years.

breaking up is really a very very sad thing. it doesnt matter if the guy or girl is bad, or that either one of them deserves it, i believe the pain is just the same, it cuts both ways.

but this friend of ours, they had the most beautiful loving romantic relationship ever. you can practically see birds singing over their heads when they're together. the kind that is not annoying (u know how some couples just makes u wanna barf, or yell "get a room!", or just pour boiling water over them:-") this couple is different. you should have seen the way the guy used to look at the girl sincerely. his eyes just sparkle, its like he couldnt believe it that this eyes that he's gazing into is looking straight back at him, full of love. It just makes u wish that someday you would be lucky enough to find a guy who would look at u the same way.

So anyway, we all thought that nothing could tear them both apart, not even if Godzilla storms in and eat the whole city. but sadly, they too, like other couples i have come to know, came to the end of their road. this bothers me because, i keep thinking if this 2 angelic people couldnt make it, who can? how am i supposed to believe in love like this? *dramaqueenmoment*

which reminds me of something Shawn said in one of the episode of Boy Meets World, when his bestfriend, Cory broke up with Topanga.(Cory and Topanga is the sweetest highschool sweethearts btw). Cory asked Shawn why is he more devastated then him over the break up, and Shawn said,

" Because, I want to have what you have with Topanga. How can I have what u have when you don't have it anymore! I want u to still have it."

so you see, i just hope that this is not the end of the road for them. lets just hope that its just a detour. and somehow someday, their paths will cross again, and they'll be together forever:)

anyway, what i'm trying to say is, falling in love is a splendid thing, but the possibility of falling out of it, scares the hell out of me.

Pride And Prejudice.

Keira Knightley has everything I ever wanted in the Pride and Prejudice (2005):

a) the looks

b) the grace

c) the ability to ballroom dance

d) the beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dresses I hope to own them all 1 day

and

e) the charming Mr. Darcy :)

"You have bewitched me body and soul and I love, I love, I love you." - Mr Darcy
"Your hands are cold." - Elizabeth Bennet

"From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, you self disdain for the feelings of others made me realized, that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry." - Elizabeth Bennet

"May I have the next dance, Miss Elizabeth?" - Mr. Darcy

"I love you most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand." - Mr. Darcy

"Once lost, is lost forever." - Mr. Darcy

"Yes, a thousand times yes."

p/s: keira knightley is the only woman i would allow my husband in the future to drool over, because she is truly beautiful ;)