White Flag.

sometimes,

before stepping into a battlefield

you'll feel all hyped up

all excited and full of spirit

and you actually believe that you kinda sorta maybe probably can actually win this battle...

....until u meet the enemy.

and the first thought that came to your mind is

"how can i compete with her?"

sadis.

Daddy's Little Girl.

The best picture of me and my dad :)

Happy Father's Day
I Love You.

Anyway.

I know no matter how we put it, no matter what the reason is, a lie is still a lie. But we have to admit that there are certain kind of lies that we choose to believe for personal reason: 1. Like how my dad always end our phone conversation with "okei i'll call you later" but he almost never will. But i believe him anyway. 2. Or like when someone says they miss you, but it seems unlikely, but because it makes you feel good, you believe them anyway. 3. Or when you have a problem, people will tell u "Dont worry, everything will be fine". Now u know that that person couldnt possibly know what the future holds, but it calms you down, So u believe it anyway.

Hate That I Love You.

"You know just what to do
So I can't stay mad at you,
For too long, that's wrong.."

it's either i'm plain stupid

or

what we have going on between us here is just pure magic.

"One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me..."
-Rihanna-

Hurt.

"With a broken heart that's still beating...
...I'm barely holding on to you."
-Lifehouse-

i am not even mad anymore.

i am beyond that.

i am hurt.

how hard is it to remember that i too, have feelings.

i'm just a girl.

just a girl.

"I can't explain why it's not enough,
'coz I gave it all to you..."
-James Morrison-

Fame.

I think i read this in some novel before
"Are we miserable because we listened to sad songs, or we listen to sad songs because we're miserable?"

Maybe it works both way.

Random thoughts from mua.

• i wish i could bark for myself sometimes. i wish my defense mechanism is punching someone in the face and not being the one ending up in tears. this is another trait that i failed to inherit from my family. see if someone were to treat my brother or sister wrongly, they would surely go after that person. they wouldn't be afraid to tell them off. I on the other hand would love to do that, but when I'm mad, my anger turns into useless tears. which would leave me looking like a fool.
• which reminds me of what meg ryan said in the movie You've Got Mail. She wished she could say the exact things that she wanted to say, at the exact moment she wanted to say it. but then again, when she finally had the chance, she felt really awful about it.
• anywayyyy...guess i could cross out obstetric and gynaecology out of my list! things i liked about it, is the look on the husbands face when their wives are having the babies. u can see all kinds of reactions. there are calm, cool and collected ones. those who look more panic than the wife. and my personal favourite, the "o'oh i did this to my wife"look. :))
• i'm starting to think my sarcasm is a disease.
• humans are forgetful creatures. women know how much it hurts to be in labor, and yet they get pregnant again after that. *still in obsgyn mode*. ppl know how much it hurts to fall out of love, but they fall right back in again after that.
• i'm just saying that i know how it feels like to lose yourself in a moment of weakness, where nothing else matters but that moment that you are in.
• sometimes we stand too close to someone that we fail to see what lies beyond and totally missed the bigger picture.
• let me close with a quote between a married couple from a TV show i saw yesterday,

" I get it that she's your bestfriend. But there'll come a time when you just
can't have a girl as your bestfriend anymore, because there's a much more
important girl in your life, your wife."

Livin' A Lie

by The-Dream ft Rihanna

I wanna tell the world that you're my girl
And that I'm your man,
And I wanna tell the world that you got me
Why can't we be
I can't put my name on your kiss
And I can't speak your name from these lips
We froze and nobody knows

Have to walk out the room everytime you call
Tellin everybody I ain't seen you in so long
It feels like I ain't breathing
This feels worser than cheating

Cuz we out here livin' a lie,
Out here livin' a lie
I'm out here livin' a lie
Why what makes you smile seem to make you cry
Im out here livin' a lie,
I'm out here livin' a lie
Behind these smiles I'm really hurting inside.

Everytime I wanna put us on display
Time takes a breath
I hear about other relationships that ain't true
I wanna set it right
And I can't tell nobody how I feel
And I can't tell nobody how we is

I wanna hop on the first thing smokin'
Tell our agent to book us a plane
I wanna be near you
I wanna be near you too
I wanna wake up
Right next to you baby

Everything in this world has got us crazy
I'm so through, you too?
What's the worst that could happen baby if they know?
Won't be nothing
Coz you're inpecable,
You're everything that I love
I wanna be with you.