You're Not Sorry.

so most of us got our first doctor's white coat yesterday.

we were really excited about it.

oooooh-ing and wuuuuu-ing at each other when we were trying it on.

some took pictures and sent to their parents, loved ones, wives too i believe :)

there's just something about the coat that is magical, somehow once when you put it on you just look different. you look like....a doctor. like the real ones hehe.

just so proud to see our friends wearing it. It's like we finally realized that we are going to actually be a doctor. it's not some faraway dream anymore. and ofcourse, we still know nothing! :)

but we're proud of ourselves for making it this far.

God knows it wasn't an easy road.

thanks to my family and a couple of my friends who were very supportive and excited for me too.

though there were also those who put me down. it's okei, really.

I'm not mad or angry or anything, just maybe hurt.

people never expect much from me anyway. it's always been that way since forever. and it's okei i rather people not have high expectations of me, less preasure that way. and if i do succeed, well it would just be a pleasant surprise for everyone:)

but to have your closest friends pandang rendah to you sometimes just tears you up. especially if the timing is not right.

i know medic indon ni x high class, tapi for the sake of knowledge x kesah kot kat mana kan.

lain kali please, x payah ask me anything kalau dah nak pandang rendah to me and medic indonesia. if you wanna know anything next time please ask those who are studying in UK, Russia, etc k. if you think i'm not up to your standard to be friends with you pun xpalah, its okei, i understand completely :)

lepas i'm posting this, nanti ada la yg nak mintak maaf, x payah la (save it for someone who would actually believe it). it's not only u. i know i'm not smart. thanks for pointing it out to me so blatantly, but i just don't quite appreciate the laughing behind my back by someone i trust. but anywayy, all is forgiven, i just wanted to post this as a reminder to all of us. to not beluttle each other.

certain people like to say things without thinking, because they feel like if their words hurt someone's feelings, you can erase the whole thing simply by saying sorry after that. thats just ridiculous. the damage has already been done. that sorry of yours won't worth much after that. life is not a magna doodle.

so if you can't be supportive, then just back off kot:) that simple kan. your negativity is not needed, thank u :)

besides,

didn't our beloved Prophet (S.A.W) once said

"If you can't say something good, say nothing at all." ?

:)