I'll Be Waiting.

the impact of having friends who are already working :

kalau dulu boleh call anytime, skg kena tgk jam, before or after office hours only.
dang.

i graduated last wednesday. Alhamdulillah I now have my degree in my hands, without losing MUCH of my sanity :)) but i don't feel any different pun haha. dah la graduation macam penyampaian hadiah sukaneka je =)) my school's hari anugerah pun grand sket kot haihh. but i know this degree means a lot more to my parents than it is to me. my dad always wanted to see us all walk down the stage with a scroll in our hands first before walking us down the aisle i guess. and since it was their 30th wedding anniversary this year, i told them this is my gift to them.

owh and thanks to alllll the presents and the cards and the flowers and the wishes too! I love them all! :)

rse cm baru je nanges2 kat airport first time fly sini :-" dah grad dah pun..........okei fine i'll save this emotional flashbacks until September next year when i'm back in malaysia for good :D

back to work. i hate it here. im actually missing Jogja, but that is too weird. so i figured what i really miss is my friends in Jogja. "it's not where you are, but who you're with" kan? :) anyway im looking at it this way, there's a river full of obstacles in front of me, at the end of it are my loved ones. it'll take me 1 and a half years to make it across this river to them. so i guess I better start now and get it over and done with. It's easier if I imagine it this way i think. Easier if you have something to look forward to. You guys are my light at the end of the tunnel. So here I go, into the water, jumping in, head first, and i'm doing this for you three. So please, wait for me.

"I'd walk a thousand miles on broken glass, it won't stop me,
from making my way back to you..."
James Morrison

Good Morning Beautiful

"Good Morning Beautiful,

how was your night?

Mine was wonderful

with you by my side..."

Keith Urban

auwwwww how sweet is that? :)

There's this one episode of Mercy i saw a couple of weeks back. A very old couple came to the hospital, and then suddenly the wife had stroke. Her husband was by her side when it happened, and he looked so lost and miserable, and he kept calling her name. And then when the wife finally recovered, the first thing she said was "Don't look. Without make up. I'm hideous." and the husband sincerely replied, "Ridiculous, you look beautiful my girl" and kissed her cheeks. Aishhhh it was all very sweet, bare in mind that they're like 60 -70 years old. From the look on the woman's face, to the tears in the husband's eyes..

and that was when i realized something. (o'oh)

I got it all wrong. This is what i should be praying and hoping for. This is what love should be all about. To still feel and treat each other the same way as the first day they met. To be able to look at someone the same way even after 35 years of living together. Who would still hold your hands when you're old and gray, and say that you are still madly in love and there couldn't be another.

Now, that's love worth fighting for.

Save Yourself.

"If you stay with me, honestly that's what I want,

But if you stay with me, I know I ask too much."

tiba2 rasa stress, nak balikkkk. eventhough Jogja is not my home, i still feel homesick. and i miss my real home in kulim, so i'm homesick times 2. i need someone to sing me soft kitty. aishhh feel like im coming down with something. In the words of the great Sheldon, "Homesick is a kind of sick."

"So won't you save, save yourself,

By leaving me now, for someone else.

If i'm crying now, don't listen to me,

It's only my heart."

-James Morrison-

Someday We'll Know.

To my two dearest friends,

I am so proud of you both.

Its like watching you grow right before my eyes.

Dari sekolah --> university --> skarang dh kerja.

Lepas ni kawen plak eh? hehe, i hope to still be a part of your lives then too :)

Cik Norhashimah Laili
- i still remember the days you'd come hang out in our room kat Jasin dulu
- the times yang awak gaduh ngn r*ul hahaha
- pastu awk masuk UTP, mcm2 jadi kann, the tears and the laughter, thx for sharing it all with me:)
- ingat all the phone calls we made to each other, ngadu bnde yg x best and yg best kan. sampai sy rasa cm kenal kawan2 awk sume hehe.
- owh i went to UTP once to see u remember? :)
- all the times we met kat KL.
- pastu phase gi interview2. you had to face a lot of things, but you are so strong girl, bangga sgt ngn awk. i told you not to give up, God have better plans for you kan :)
- now you are already working my dear, can't believe it. sangat happppy utk awk. kerja rajin2 tau shimmm, remember to start small, but grow big k :) all the best! gluckkk! (kenalkn engineer handsome2 kat sy k) jgn ponteng2! =p

Encik Muhamad Hilmee
- hmmm where do i start :) i knew you from the days blur2 masa form 4 lg, seret kaki g class =P
- i was the one elected you as president homeroom haha see i saw great potential in u dari dulu lagi:->
- then phase saling mmbantu ambikkn gmbr :))
- pastu ko masuk matrix-xde-line-pahang haha
- i was even there the day you knew you got accepted into UITM S.Alam, we were all visiting jasin kan time tu...
- 4 taun kat s.alam, rse cm aku student UITM gak haha :from your hostel in campus (perindu eh?), to the one yg off campus, to the two houses yg you guys rented outside hehe, skg dh habes dh, kejap sgt!
- aishhh now you too will be working, and i couldnt be more proud :) I know you've been through a whole lot to be where you are right now, the things you had to deal with, but i've always believed in you. you were so strong, and u never gave up. God knows you deserve this. All the best and good luck for your work k, jgn ponteng2 (and nk engineer handsome jgk =P )

with love,
Farin

p/s: please don't forget about me :)

Spanish Guitar.

I think there are guitar's strings attached to my heart instead of arteries :-" when someone plays the guitar, it goes straight inside of me, seriously.

top 2 songs guys should know how to play on guitar
1. Kau Ilhamku
2. More Than Words

baru nyanyi "beribu bintang..." dah boleh melt like lemon drops kan;)

"I wish that I was in your arms,

like that spanish guitar..."

-Toni Braxton -

Wasting Time.

first time buat baek kena marah 0_0

besides cigarette smoke, there's two more things that i find it hard to tolerate

1. waiting for ppl
2. make ppl wait for me.

so most of the time i'll try my very best to be on time (okei fine, if i'm late tu selalunya sebab kena tunggu org lain siap, or traffic jam, or wait for an available car, or bus driver drive super slow, or LRT ramai org or gaduh dgn kakak :-" ) but i'll always try my best to be punctual, especially for formal events.

last night someone msged me at 11pm to be at the hospital at 7am today. with a heavy head (from lack of sleep from the previous night oncall) i was there at 7 sharp and no one was there. at 9am, there were only 6 of us out of 26 ppl, and plus the one who msged us all wasnt even there! so i got mad at one of my groupmates, and he had the guts to blame me! he said, tu salah kamu. dah 3 tahun setengah tak kan tak tau lagi ,disini kalau org janji kul 7 maksudnya bukan btul2 kul 7! hahahahahahaha, then whats the use of promising ?????????

haihhh,
maybe i should be living in Japan.

Don't Cry Out Loud.

"Don't cry out loud,

Just keep it inside,

Learn how to hide your feelings."

wouldn't it be easier

if there's a back door to every situation?

like when u've made such a mess in someone else's life,

u can quietly escape through the back door,

so that things would be back to normal in their life,

and most importantly,

no one would notice that u're gone.

"Fly high and proud,

And if you should fall,

Remember you almost had it all."