Sugar Baby Love.

Latest addition to our big family, baby Yassin. Cant wait to meet him and squeeze his cheeks!! Grow a little bit more baby and you and I will be going out on a date to mcDonald's and Toys' r Us after that:-*

Selamat Hari Raya.

I think we enjoyed raya the most when we were little kan.

I feel the need to thank my parents for letting us adek beradek have the best of raya while we were growing up. Like birthdays, they really made a big deal out of Hari Raya. They would make sure each of us have brand new clothes for raya, duit raya lagi, food on the table, bring us all balik Taiping or Ipoh (and not fight bout which kampung to go back, haha at least not in front of us). I know Dad had to spend a lot on us. Thank you so much.

And now that we're all grown up, we'll try to keep the tradition going, and make sure our children in the future, InsyaAllah will have great Eids' too. And one day, someday reallll soon I hope, I'd like to be the one to buy both of you baju raya pulak, and give both of you duit raya for a change. Please stay around forever for that to happen mommy, daddy. I'm working hard on it, I really am. (please dear God, make my dreams come true) I love you both.

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin.
From your little angel far from home 0_0

I Got You Babe.

This bit from the Big Bang Theory is kinda interesting.


On trying to win over Sheldon's hot twin sister, Missy.

Howard : Okay you two have to back off.
Leonard: Excuse me, why should I back off, this is my apartment, and she's my roomate's sister.
Howard: So what! You've already got Penny!
Leonard: How do I have Penny? In what universe do I have Penny??
Howard: *silent* So can I have Penny?
Leonard: Hell no!



haha typical.
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Cahaya Aidilfitri.

can't believe the day that i would have to make this kind of to-do list is actually here *sob3*

raya to-do list
1. change curtain
2.change comforter
3. kemas bilik
4. kemas hall
5. cuci toilet
6. kemas dapur
7. beli bawang, kunyit, halia
8. find bekas kueh raya
9. fill it with kueh raya.
10. re-arrange furniture in my room
11. rebus ketupat and nasi impit.
12. kuah kacang

look Mak, i'm all grown up :-)

Just Might (Make Me Believe).

"But if you can look in my eyes,
And tell me we'll be alright,
If you promise never to leave,
You just might make me believe"
-Sugarland-

I dont know why I'm making such a big deal out of not going back this raya. Well ofcourse I know why, but I'm really not handling this very good. I've spent the last 22 eids with my family, this is the first time i'll be away from them :(

or maybe this is one of those "looking at the cup half empty or half full" situations. maybe i should look at it this way, i've spent 22 rayas with my family, this is just ONE raya i have to spend it without them. just ONE.

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nope, not working.

anywayyy, 3 of my friends went back Malaysia today. and something inside of me sortof kindof just snapped. not to have your family around for Eid is one thing, but not to have your friends too???

so i thought its time to do something crazy again. like what I did in December 2008. i just emptied my back account and bought a ticket home spontaneously (and i sure as hell glad i did <3 ). but I also have this habit of avoiding looking at the ATM screen when it shows my balance :-" so i always have no idea how much money I have left. I just told myself, if its meant to be, a miracle would happen and I could afford to go back home, but if its not, then God must have intended me to spend my raya here for a reason, and i have to accept it.

so i went to Air Asia counter first and asked for the ticket price, as expected, it was ridiculously expensive. but i really wouldnt mind taking out all i've got. so i went to the ATM machine next and checked my balance. and almost laughed out loud, in tears. what i had left, not only that its definitely not enough to score a seat on the plane, they wouldnt even let me hang on to its tire.

so apparently now i'm lost,

all alone,

and broke.

and it's gonna be raya soon.

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phewww.
its okei cik, u still have a lot to be thankful for.
just. breathe.

Don't Give Up On Us Baby.

Dear self,

Stop being so pathetic. Snap out of it. Wake up and smell the bullshit that u're surrounded in. It is time to grow up. Don't make me give up hope on you.

Love always,
Me.