Need You Now.

"and i wonder if I ever cross your mind,

coz for me it happens all the time..."

I saw this bruce willis movie once, can't remember the title, but it was about him meeting the kid version of him from the past. the kid came to the future, and asked him questions about his life, how he's gonna do, and etc. and it got me to thinking, if we too were presented with that kind of oppurtunity, what would we say to that kid version of us? would it be

A) "oh u've got nothing to worry about kid, u'll make all the right decisions in life, fall for the right man, have a wonderful family, and become very successful"

or

B) "i'm sorry kid, but i screwed it up for the both of us."

if i could stop my life for awhile right now, and look back down the 23 years worth of road i've travelled so far, would i be proud of myself? or would i see flaws and wrong turnings that i now know i shouldnt have taken?

come to think of it, i wouldn't change a thing. not the slightest bit. coz what if i never found u?

for me, if a 6-year old farina comes to the future and asks me how's her future would be like i would say...

"kid, i can't say that your life would be a smooth sailing from here on. there are days that you would cry your little heart out, days that you would fall and couldn't get back up. at times you'll feel like a fool. you'd get your heart broken into the smallest pieces imaginable. days that you thought you would never get through it alive. but, there would also be times that you would laugh and actually mean it. nights that u would sleep with a smile on your face. times that you would feel loved and love it. you'd at the top of the world sometimes and nothing could bring you down. days that you'd feel like heaven is in your arms. and u'd come to realize that when a broken heart heals,

it just grows bigger than before."

"coz i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all."

Some People.

A very important lesson in life:

We are all pathetic in our own special ways at one point in our lives.

Some can't see the truth staring them in the eye.

Some hold on to the past until they couldn't have a future.

Some live in denial.

Some are living a lie.

Some live of off someone else's happiness.

Some hope for the impossible.

Some are lost.

Some refuses to be found.

Some are still waiting.

So, lets not judge.

If I Can't Have You (I Don't Want Nobody, Baby)

tringat someone yg sblm mampu beli handphone dia download theme dulu, beli casing hp dulu hehe, well i can't even afford the casing, all i have is its pamphlet, hari2 tengok mr Corby, when will you be mine..? ;;)

this week flew past by reallll quick, does this mean im actually loving it?

baru sebulan balik m'sia knapa mcm dh sgt lamaaaaa, huhu i wanna go homeee, i'm just too far from where you are, i wanna come home <--- cue lagu michael buble

"Di waktu malam, bulan mengambang,

Sunyi damai, damai sekelilingku,

Terdengar nan sayu,

Bintang seribu,

Membujuk rayu kerna merindu,

Lagu yang dulu.

Di waktu malam, bulan purnama,

Angin laut meniup niup deras,

Mengatakan sayang, berlagu merdu,

Memadah sayu lemah mendayu,

Nak dara rindu.

Tanjung Katung air nya biru,

Tempat mandi nak dara jelita,

Sama sekampung sedangkan dirindu,

Ini kan lagi yang jauh di mata."

P.ramlee

Feelings Show.

"The way you make me feel,

Like the sun coming up in the morning,

Like holding the world in your hands,

In a way I could never imagine,

That's the way you make me feel."

-ronan keating-

what does it mean,

when u feel like u want to give someone the finest things in life?

no no, this is not like those "saye nk belikn awak baju benang emas, kasut kaca, hati nyamuk 7 dulang, istana 30 tingkat dengan 30 orang gaji, satu utk masak, satu utk kemas rumah, satu utk potong kuku blablabla.."

tu ayat mengorat tu, dusta semata2 =))

this is different. this is....a sincere feeling that u get from deep down inside. u really feel it. it's like suddenly u have this feeling like u only want that person to have the best of things. only the best. and it felt so......real.

Can't Help It.

"Would it be a sin,

If I can't help falling in love with you...?"

-elvis-

wow :->

okei so it's not like i hated it 100%.

it was interesting, the cases that came in yesterday was really something.

it's just that,

i don't do late nights. 0_0

my bedtime is at 10pm.

if you want me to stay up way past that, u have to be realllllllly cute :-" and u have to provide me with my energy booster, Mc Donald's Sundae ;) combination of the two, and i can stay up the wholeeeeeee night without complaining ;)

ni smlm 36 jam, all i had was maggi and biscuit, and im tired and sleepy, and i want my bed. and my facebook. and my everything. *dramaqueen*

wish my kindergarten teacher would have told me bout this from the moment i said i wanted to be a doctor 17 years ago, i would have totally switched my ambition to being a cook 0_0

The Long And Winding Road.

i am about to embark on a new journey, a journey named koas (clinical), for 1.5years.
no more classes, lectures sgt dh *gone were the days org sign kan attendance* :D
i'll be starting my clinical in an hour :-ss
gosh, i don't know what to feel.
i want to be excited, i want to love this, but seeing others yang dah start asyik complain penat + boring + sux through their facebook status (because u know, facebook status is the new punching bag) makes me doubt my own excitedness.
anyway, i shall find out soon enough if i'll be in the hate it or love it group *gulp*

mental preparation :
1. being yelled at is normal.
2. being yelled at is normal.
3. being yelled at is normal.

0_0

owh, thanks to those who wished me luck! i'll be needing it :D

All My Loving.

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,
Tomorrow I'll miss you,
Remember I'll always be true.

And then while I'm away,
I'll write home everyday,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

I'll pretend that I'm kissing,
The lips I am missing,
And hope that my dreams will come true.

And then while I'm away,
I'll write home everyday,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

by The Beatles

More Than Words.

do you know the study of handwriting is called Graphology?
i wonder if there's a study for text messaging.
because i think, like handwriting, we can recognise people from the way they text too.
everyone has their own special way of texting.
like how one has a signature smell. you know, when u smell something, a perfume maybe, then u automatically think of that person because that person always smells like that. dont worry, i too dont see how this statement is relevant in this context.
anyway as i was saying, special way of texting:

• some put a string of dots at the end of each sentences...........
• some end their sentences with exclamation marks! and its not because they're mad.
• some have a unique way of spelling certain words like, nebes = nervous
• some add on emoticons, for ym-freaks especially :)) :-" <:-P :-*. guilty as charged.
• some type down full sentences, with proper spelling, ie my dad.
• some use shortforms for everyyyy word, and it'll be like a riddle or a code that you have to decipher to know what they actually meant.
• some add ^^ to their text, or haihh or wuhooo

so u see, i think FBI or CSI should have a special team dedicated for text messaging. or maybe they already do. i have no idea why i'm writing about this. maybe it's to avoid the bigger problem i have in hand which i refuse to face, at least not yet, not now. if i can only shout out one question to the world, it would be "why????". but i know and and i still believe that everything happens for a reason. I just have to wait, very patiently, for the reason.

Quiet Nights Of Quiet Stars.

don't you just hate it when you're really tired and sleepy but u just cant seem to fall asleep?

then u'll waste time by tossing and turning in bed.

then u'll get bored.

then u'll start to think. bout life and stuff. and everyone knows thats not a good thing.

then u'll get all kinds of emotions inside of you.

then u'll get restless.

and that will bring us back to problem number 1 : can't sleep.

sigh.

fine, maybe it's just me.

Almost Lover.

u know i think i once heard someone said,

Love is what makes u smile when u're tired.

well, thank u Love then=)