Too Much, Too Little, Too Late

Khabi2 (ececey, kadang2 i mean) kita berusaha utk menipu diri kita sendiri. (ahaha woww ayat) There are times when we say stuff to people mostly to convince ourselves more than to the people around us. We say that it's the truth and we want to believe it.

For example, when you're dissapointed with someone, then you'll say "Ahh I dont care bout X anymore, why should I when X clearly doesnt care bout me. go to h*ll la" maybe something more subtle or vulgar then that. The people around you might believe it, but you just can't lie to yourself now can u? Ofcourse you care bout X, you still think about X most of the time, you wonder if X is okei, everything reminds you of X, and if X comes around begging you for forgiveness, ofcourse you'll forgive and forget.

Or kadang2 bila someone close to u does things yang hurt your feelings, you'll say like alaaa x payah la nak terasa, it's not like you just knew that person or what not. but the truth is, u're still hurt kan. what they did or didnt do still left a scar to your heart. get what i mean?

"My head is saying, "Fool, forget him"
My heart is saying, "Don't let go"
- Hopelessly Devoted To You, Olivia Newton John-

what comes out of our mouth is one thing, but what our heart feels is a whole other thing. i always think that the heart has a mind of it's own.

someone close, like your family maybe. you'll think you shouldnt feel hurt, because they're your family. but truth is, tak kira la who, when you're hurt, you're hurt.

or close like a friend yang you would do anything for them. you've done a lot for them actually. you've been there through thick and thin. you'd give anything. you have given them everything. but rasa macam they don't appreciate it. jagala hati dan perasaan orang lain once in awhile. bukannya susah. people does things for you, they've gone the extra mile for you, why don't you do the same for them too? it's not that they expect you to return the favor or anything, but you know, just a little bit effort from you, to show them that you appreciate what they've done, wouldnt hurt kan?

"Is there someone you know, you're loving them so, but taking them all for granted? You may lose them one day, someone takes them away, and they don't hear the words you long to say."
- Everything I Own, Bread -

why do we have to experience loss to know how much it means to us?

what if it's too late then?

why can't i post something cheerful for a change?