I Say A Little Prayer.

i just noticed something. there's actually a lot of movies with the storyline about love between bestfriends. and it's always like this: boy been friends with girl for a long time. girl slowly falls for guy. guy like someone else. girl is heartbroken. guy realizes his mistakes. girl gets guy.

i just have one word for that. BULLSH*T. :-" sorry, but its true. come on la ppl, be realistic. who are u trying to fool? (well not me that's for sure). In real life, 9 out of 10 situations like above will end up with the guy or its usually the girl crying their eyes out, for nothing!

maybe that's why they make movies. for people to escape reality for awhile. giving false hope to actually believe that it might just happen in real life too. *haktui*.

there's only one movie about love between bestfriends, with a very perfect realistic ending. My Best Friend's Wedding, starring Julia Roberts (Jules) and Dermot Mulroney (Michael).

THE BEST MOVIE EVER

I've watched this movie for more than 20 times, i can even remember most of the lines. here are some of my favourite quotes from this movie :)

Jules : Sophomore year at Brown we had this one hot month, yeah you know me, I got restless. So I get the nerve to break his heart. And he get's this...look. Then he says, "What makes me want to cry is that I'm losing the best friend I ever had." And I knew I felt the same. So I cried, for maybe the 3rd time in my life. And we've been bestfriends ever since.

Jules : He adored me for 9 goddamn years, me! She has known him for what, 5 seconds?

Jules : I have to get him back George, I can't lose him.

Jules: *struggles to find her shirt to cover up her body when she's half naked in the fitting room when Michael walks in*
Michael : You want me to turn around or something?
Jules : *mumbles* Yes..
Michael : I've seen you a lot more naked then that.
Jules : *blushes* Well now, it's different..
Michael : *turns to leave and smiles* You look really good. Without clothes on.

Jules : Sometimes, people think they know how they feel about each other, but they don't. Until they do.

Michael : And I was thinking, this could be our last time. Alone. Together. You know?
Jules : Except for the hot affairs we'll have twice a year.
Michael : Except for that.

Michael : Kimmy says when you love someone, you say it. Right then. Out loud. Otherwise, the moment just...passes you by.

Jules : Believe me, if he was feeling what I'm feeling, he would know how i feel.

Jules : If i didn't hate her, I'd adore her.

Kimmy : He has you on a pedestal, and me in his arms.

Kimmy : It's his career. I'm supportive. Look i've been everywhere, I just want to be with the man I love. That's what makes it a honeymoon.

Jules : That's George. He's here for me. He's been there for me lately. He's my friend. My best friend these days. You've been....busy.

Michael : I've got to admit, when you told me about George, I was.... I have this feeling.. I was...
Jules : Jealous?
Michael : Crazy jealous..

Jules : Michael...I love you. I've loved you for nine years, I've just been too arrogant and scared to realize it, and well, now I'm just scared. So, I realized this comes at a very inopportune time but I really have this gigantic favor to ask of you. Choose me. Marry me. Let me make you happy. Oh that sounds like 3 favors doesn't it?

Jules : I have stolen a bread van, and I'm chasing Michael down Michigan Avenue!
George : Michael is chasing Kimmy?
Jules : Yes!
George : You're chasing Michael?
Jules : Yes!
George : Who's chasing you? Nobody! Got it?! You are not the one!

George : It's amazing the clarity that comes with psychotic jealousy.

Jules : It's true! I kissed him! I tried to steal him! I lost. You win. He chose you. Now I'd like to take you to the wedding, so you could marry the man of our dreams, because he sure wants to marry you.

Michael : On the other hand, thank you for loving me that much, it's pretty flattering.

Jules : I had the strangest dream, i dreamt that some psychopath was trying to break the two of you up. Luckily I woke up and I see the world is just as it should be. For my best friend has won the best woman.




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Now playing: Aretha Franklin - I Say A Little Prayer For You
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Someone You Used To Know.

by Zee Avi

It was helpless anyway,
There's nothing much we could do or say,
Darling, don't you think it's a shame?
That it had to end this way.

So here's to say goodbye,
Our love is lost, and we can't figure why,
Maybe it really is about time,
That we finally made up our minds.

So darling, here's to you,
I hope that when you find someone new,
That she would always be true to you,
To love and understand you.

Soon you'll build new memories,
Then slowly you'd forget about me,
Then I would slowly be,
A distant memory

Soon I'll just be,
That someone you used to know,
But darling you will thank me,
For letting you go.
Time is not for wasting,
I hope you'll find your intended,
But I'm sorry,
That your intended, isn't me.

It's not an easy thing,
To shake off our history,
I know that's what you want from me,
But they will always stay with me.

I admit I make mistakes,
But darling, with you it's just the same,
If we stay there will be more to make,
I don't know how much we can take.

Darling it would be unfair,
To stay with something no longer there,
But it doesn't mean I no longer care,
But I'd feel like a burden you can't bear,
And soon I'll just be,
Someone you used to know.

Tied Together With A Smile.

Nan~Azree~Jimah

please note my watch :-"

~besties~

we went bowling the other day, before balik malaysia. we ate at Tao's Kitchen first. it was really, a very lovely outing (minus a few things ofcourse, like waiting and hoping like a fool.). so anyway, the next day me and Jimah went bowling again, and it was just sooo weird and boring kut. haha it was then that we realized bowling without a certain someone is like nasi lemak without sambal =))

Why Can't We Be Friends?

kan org cakap jgn berharap kan, kalau tak berharap, tak kecewa. well i did not expect anything from it, honestly! okei fine maybe a simple thank you, but nothing more. it was merely a peace offering. hoping that this whole fiasco would end soon. little did i know, it went totally the opposite way. haihhh..

you could have at least waited until i got home. you could have at least ask me for an explanation. you ASSUME things. how is that fair to me? oh wait, that dont matter, what matters most is you and only you kan.

you've no idea how much you've crushed me. you've no idea how much pain you've caused me. you've no freaking idea. and that's the whole damn problem.

haihhh...

dh la, this has got to be the lamest blog ever. wonder if there's such an award. "world's lamest blog". i'd sure win it.

Home.

Some people just like crushing other people's hope kan.

Tell me, did you feel good bout yourself? Did it bring a smile to your face? Did you get what you want?

You'll only know how I feel if you feel it yourself, although i hope you won't ever have to feel this way.

You know how sometimes, when people did something bad to you, and you'd vow to do the same thing to them someday just so they know how u felt. but then when your opportunity finally comes, you finally got the chance, you wouldn't have the heart do it to them anyway! why is it okei if you're hurt, but not them? is that love? or sheer stupidity?

So im done with my 3rd year, and i'll be going back tomorrow. God, I can hardly believe it, the much anticipated day is finally arriving! although some of my plans have changed over the past few months (for the better i would like to believe), its all good. I just wanna be home.

"You're the only face i wanna see,
That's why i'm gonna be on the next plane home."

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Now playing: Daniel Powter - Next Plane Home
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Wordplay.

snapp la, how can i get high on something as simple as that. aishh, i just never learn from my mistakes kann... but this feeling, its kinda nice. yeah la compared to the sucky feeling i've had for the past few weeks kan. to smile about something as trivial as this is just what i needed, i think. hey at least im smiling again kan :)

i have OSCE exams tomorrow, i need allllll the luck in the world! just cant wait to get it over and done with. wuhooo

owh and im kinda glad now that my two bestfriends already know bout this blog:) see, not that i dont want to tell you bout it, its just that, well, it's not that important anyway. its just me, playing with words :D

cepat la sabtuuuuuuu



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Now playing: Dean martin - Absence makes the heart grow fonder (For someone else)
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Strangers In The Night.

It's funny how sometimes you can know more about a stranger you just got to know, then someone you've known your whole life.

Funny how a stranger understands you better than anyone else ever could.

Funny how you feel like you can tell a stranger everything, from the simplest things to the complicated ones, yet its hard for you to open up to the one you're closest with.

A stranger... someone you've never met, and yet felt like you've known them since forever. And as time goes by, you discover that you actually share a lot of common grounds together. And you'll become even closer. From strangers, to friends. From friends to....is it possible?

I guess sometimes God sends you these wonderful people to cushion the blow, to comfort you, to fill in the emptiness someone else is responsible for.

And knowing me, it'll be any second now before i fall for....okei i need to snap out of it, for all i knew it could be just a phase. but wouldn't it be nice....8->

And I really am, thankful for you:)
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Now playing: Frank Sinatra - Strangers In The Night
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Wonderful Tonight.

"...and the wonder of it all, is that you just don't realize how much I love you..."

enough said.

Ain't No Way To Treat A Lady.

So i thought men are supposed to be taking the very first move? it's always been like that kan, men pursue the person they fall in love with, and the ladies, well they just sit there and do as little as batting their eyelashes. at least that's how i thought it should be...thanks to the amount of fairytales i've read growing up, and the romantic comedies i adore watching. (*owh but then Afiq cakap movies semua tipu...i wish someone could have told me that 22 years ago*)

nowadays, somehow, it's the other way around. the men are tooooo afraid to make the first move.why u ask? i have no freaking idea! men being afraid of women, don't u find that's a little wee bit ridiculous? if you guys are afraid of us,n of a little rejection, of taking a little risk, of lowering down your giant ego, how are we women, "supposedly being the weaker gender", depend on you ppl? gee guys, please have some ba***.

i know now it's a modern world, and people are exercising equality rights and what not. but some things just have to stay the same. the decision is not in our hands dear gentlemen, it's in yours. if you like, say that you do. be a man! if you don't however, then don't go leading us on. thats just pure cruelity.

"do not tempt a woman's heart. because upon provocation, the softest one could turn into the hardest stone"

Don't play with our emotions. that's just not fair kan. you don't want but you don't want anyone else to have them too. that's just plain........selfish??? damn

I thought it was you, clearly i was wrong.

But, I'm very sure, there are still men out there who truly are a gentlemen, who are brave enough to take the first move for the sake of his lady, who would honour, cherish, and respect her, who would protect and take good care of her and shower her with unconditional love. and to these men, we women, wish to give our soul to gladly, trust our whole lives with, and depend on affectionately. enough said :)

Next Plane Home.

Have you ever go to a shop and ask the salesgirl for something, like to find the shoe with your size, and she'll do this face like as though we're the one asking her a huge gigantic favor. Like we have just disturbed her very busy day filled with important daydreaming and do-or-die gossiping. i thought only Malaysians have that attitude. because as far as i can remember from the countries that i have been to, the people who works in the shops are really very friendly, and they really welcome you into their store.

they don't follow you real close behind your back as though you're gonna steal their things, i swear some even came so close they should be sued for invading one's privacy. and when you touch something and it moved out of place sikit, they dont come quickly to rearrange it just as soon as your fingers left the thing.

im not saying all Malaysians are like this, just most of them are. anyway, here the salesgirls are very friendly too, you can ask them to go back and forth to their store room to get what you want and walk away from the store not buying anything and they would still smile and thank you lagi.

But, there are also those yang buat kerja macam x nak buat. which is very bongok. it is part of your job, no matter how difficult it is for you, no matter how tiring it will be, it's your responsibility, and for God's sake, you are paid to do the job! its not like you're doing it for free *rolleyes*. Kalau x mau buat kerja elok2, quit! im sure there are a lot of people just waiting out there more than willingly to take your place. the people yang work as the conductor bus tu pun is more friendlier than u. they smile somemore, although their job involves standing most of the day, hot wheather or rain, unlike you, yang kerja dalam office, with aircond, nice clothes semua pun buat kerja macam ****. but when it comes to money, you'll ask us to hurry up and pay like your pants are on fire. aishh im sorry i just get really pissed off, when ppl mess with my holidays.

i want to go back!! i cannot take it anymore, i wanna go back to civilization, around normal people, eating normal food. 6 months is just wayyyy toooo long a time to be away from home. i miss them, enough said :(

Cuts Both Ways.

haih sakit nya, only God knows. and the worst thing is i can't tell anyone bout it this time.

please la, not now, not with exam is around the corner, not when i miss my family like crazy, just not now.

im not asking you to marry me, because u've made it real clear that i'm not good enough for you. im not asking for your blood, im not asking anything from you except some appreciation for what i've done. im just asking you to notice it, and please dont accuse me of not caring, of intentionally trying to hurt you. the whole world knows that i would hurt myself before i hurt you. you're the one just too blind to see.

i never thought that it would hurt this much. i cant tell anyone because i dont want them to have to take sides again. because when they do, you'll be alone.

how many times must we go through this? how many time must i cry for you? why do i feel like i have to prove my friendship to you all the time? well friendship can only go so far.

maybe they dont care if youre faking it with them, but i do.

im sorry it took me 3 years to realize that i mean nothing to you. and that all this while you were friends with me just to get to someone else.

im sorry i didn't see it from the beginning.

im sorry it has to end this way.

enough said :(

From Me To You.

Dear all Mr-i-don't-know-what-i-want of the world,

I am writing this letter to you here because i don't have the guts to say it to you straight. So this is what i wish i could say to you.

I'm asking you please to decide on what you want me to be to you. Right now, right this minute, just decide. So that i know where i stand, and i know how to act and i know where the boundaries of our relationship are. it's either, you want me or you don't. it's as simple as that. if you don't, then you hereby have no rights to be jealous or be angry or forbid me from going out with other people. Period. you can't have the best of both worlds. it's hurting me too much that way. i'm asking you please, make up your mind. it'll make both of our lives easier.

You know this whole problem that we're having could be solve if you would just grasp the idea that I am your friend. I am your friend for 3 years now, and i'll be your friend for the next 30 years if you would just let me. I will never desert you. Even if i have other friends, even if i have fun with someone else, even if i enjoy their company sometimes, it doesn't mean that i care bout u less. I'll let you on a little secret. You've already earn this special place in my heart, and there you'll stay no matter what happens. I thought you've had that figured out a long time ago. Can't you feel the love that i have for you?

See, these other people, they just walk in and walk right out of my life. but you, I would really love for you to stay. Even if i'm close with someone else, they can never have what we have. They will never share the closeness, the understanding, the mind reading, the crazy love that we have between us. for me, what we have is very special. it took us 3 years to be where we are right now, are you willing to throw that all away? just like that? can't you find it in your heart to forgive me?

When it seems like the whole world is telling me to let go, to move on, and that it'll be your lost if we lose this friendship, i don't believe a word they say. how could i when I am the one feeling lost without u? that's how much you mean to me. why cant you see that?

This craziness has got to stop, before we lose each other completely, and i don't want that. Please, let's just put this all behind us, and start over. Friends?

From,
Confused girls all over the world.

Thank You For The Music.

"I love Corrina, tell the world i do,
I love Corrina, tell the world I do,
I pray every night, she'll learn to love me too.
Corrina, Corrina, Corrina, Corrina,
Corrina, Corrina, I Love You So."

I was just listening to that song, its an oldies, sung by Ray Peterson. Yes I am in my early twenties and I do like listening to oldies. U have a problem with that? :) its not just English old songs that i enjoy listening to, i love some old malay songs too, especially from the legendary P. Ramlee. (hail amir, rafeah buang, uji rashid pun layan :D ) I dont really know all this new songs. okei fine, i once thought Beyonce is a man. hahaha oopsy :D

i donno how i came to like songs from the yesteryears, i guess it's because of my parents. my dad especially, with his wide collections of CDs and Cassettes and Karaouke collections. and they would sing me oldies to put me to sleep. my dad has a couple of really thick 60's lyrics books with guitar chords. and he would sit and play it and i could listen to him all day long 8-> and u can guess what my favourite radio station is, yes, Lite and Easy. 104.4fm in Penang. hehe, Owh what i wanted to write about is that the above mentioned song reminds me soooo much of home. because when my dad sings it, he'll change the name Corrina, to my name :)

auwww i miss our little karaouke sessions in the living room together. and how sometimes mak would bising sebab dah nak Maghrib :) or we're being too loud, the whole taman can hear us she said :D and also there's this one phase of my baby bro's life, i think when he was 7 or 8, where he would switched off the karaouke machine, and say to us with a very serious face "Ustad piyeh kata x baik karaouke tau x". :D that was back then la (back when he was still cute), now that he's all grown up, he's the one yang into music and stuff. "I love show bussiness", he once said at an audition my sis took him to =))

If there's a gene coded for music talents, im sure my family has it. Especially on my father's side of the family tree. My dad has a really great voice, and most of my uncles and cousins can really carry a tune too. My dad can play the guitar, my sister can play the piano, piyeh can play the trumpet (and 12 other instruments that he claimed he could play, but i seriously doubt). me? tambourine aci x? or the triangle thingy :D i once took piano classes when i was 9 but stopped half way, which i now wish i didnt. should have gone all the way. i envy those who can play the piano beautifully. and i find guys who can play the piano very very sexy :x besides guitar that is. so anyway, guess theres some mutation to my music gene huh? fine, enough said :)

Why can't you see?

There are just some things in this world that you just can't make people see. No matter how you explain it to them, they just won't understand, mostly because they don't want to. because mostly they don't care.

These are some of it :-

1. You cant make people see how much they mean to you. They have to be able to feel it themselves.
2. You can't make people see just how miserable you were when you were fighting with them.
3. Although you might go out with other people, to their favourite places, and it might seem that you were having fun, you just cant make them see how you did not enjoy a moment of it. Or how you did not join them play, because it reminded you too much of them.
4. You can't make people see how you waited for a month to wear something you've been wanting ever since for ever, because it did not feel right to enjoy it without them.
5. You can't make people see how the look on their faces in the morning, sets the mood of your day.
6. You can't make them see how butterflies of worry came crowding to your tummy when they showed up late.
7. Nor can you make them see how relief flushed the butterflies away the minute you saw them walking in.
8. You just can't make them see how they've hurt you like nobody has before, but you still forgave and forget.
9. You just can't make them see the one they're hurting is the one that understands them the best. The one who will never desert them. The one who cried when they're hurt. The one that loves them the most.
   
10. Well, that's it, you just can't make them see how much you care.
    

and it is oh so frustrating.

enough said :/