Someone Like You.

I was doing okei.

Until I came across this link, accidentally.

http://encikmimpi.blogspot.com/2011/12/letter-for-my-ex-bestfriend.html

I have nothing to say, except for sometimes you feel stupid and angry for being in a situation that any fool could see that you shouldn't be in.

but I guess sometimes,

you're not the only one.

It Will Rain.

Rindu.

:(

Please.

Be My Baby.

by the Ronettes.

"I'll make you happy baby, just wait and see.

For every kiss you give me, i'll give you three.

Oh since the day I saw you, I have been waiting for you

You know I will adore you till eternity."

Sooooo it's been awhile huh.

Let me see, let me see.

Oh yeah I am done with my clinical rotation.

That means I'm done with medical school.

Which means I am now......a doctor?!?!

Owh. my. God *mcm Janice from F.R.I.E.N.D.S*

:))

Im seriously both thrilled and scared.

Well more to being scared actually.

But am getting used to the life right now.

For instance, its only 7.40pm, i am already in bed and the lights are already out :D

i am bored. so very bored people.

i think i would rather be bored at home.

but i cant go back just yet, coz ill be graduating in November.

so i'll only come home after.

I've done a lil bit of packing. but it just seems impossible.

tell me again how do u pack 5 years of your life into tiny little boxes?

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i am now addicted to the narvaez family, the ones on youtube.

both girls, eliana and alexa, stole my heart right from the start.

:)

other than that, well nothing much to tell.

both excited and nervous to start my new journey back in Malaysia :)

a little note to self:

Please, please, be strong.

"So won't you please,

Be my baby?"

:)

I Got Nothing Left.

Life has a funny way of teasing you.

You go along building courage to build your heart up again from scratch, glue-ing the bits and pieces back carefully, sheltering it from the rain or storm or anything that reminded you of what broke it in the first place and as time goes by, your heart starts looking like a heart again, instead of a puddle of broken glasses. But then, just for fun i assume, life blows you wind, or throws you a look-alike, or an extremely vivid dream, and like breeze upon your fragile heart,

it starts to rock.

Come Back To Bed.

how can one feel offended bout something that wasn't even real in the first place?????

it's 2 in the morning, and i have a feeling that i'll regret this post.

ted's mom did say that when it's 2am (or was it 3?) just go to bed kan. nothing good ever happens at 2 (or 3) in the morning :))

it's like you have a puzzle, and the picture is complete, except for the last piece. and the last piece somehow won't fit in the last place. no matter how you twist and turn, it just won't fit. and its a beautiful picture, and you want to complete it so badly. but what are you to do??????

maybe this is what panic attack feels like. should i go find a paper bag to breathe into :))

it's like you managed to swim past this big rock in your way, just to find yourself in front of another rock. and I could have sworn that rock looks just the same as the one I was struggling to leave behind not so long ago.

it's like not having the ankle-high boots, when you needed it. and i really wanted one.

and i've always wanted a white handbag, and i didn't get that one too.

wait a minute, what was I talking bout just now...0_0

i. just. wish. that. this. is. all. real. for. i. can't. take. another. failure.

this is nothing by the way. this post does not exist. whoever ask me bout this is clearly hallucinating. this is just me sleep-blogging.

at 2 (or 3) in the morning.

shhhh, go back to bed.

Said I Loved You, But I Lied.

"Said I loved you but I lied,

Coz' this is more than love I feel inside."

-Michael Bolton.

There are only two situations that would highly motivate me to write:

anger or love.

I remember a blogger once wrote that he does not want to be in a relationship because he doesn't want to have to lie.

There is truth in that statement actually.

You've gotta admit, once you're in a relationship with someone, you're bound to say things like "I'll love you forever" or "I'll never ever leave you", when you know you are the last person on earth to know what the future holds, but you say it anyway.

Because there are just some things that you would rather hear I think. For example, when you asked your husband would he ever leave u for a more young, vibrant, good looking woman, what would you rather hear him say;

"Ofcourse I won't my dear."

or

"Baby you know I can't promise you that."

LOL that's one week of sleeping on the couch for u.

So maybe it really wasn't a lie. Maybe people say those things because that's how they felt at the time. At the time, you really do feel like you can never leave her. At the time, you really do feel like you can love him forever. And so you said it out loud.

But if by God's will you went on separate ways after that, well don't feel like you've been cheated. Or that it was all bull's crap. Take comfort in knowing that at one point in your life, someone actually felt that way towards you. At one point in your life, you have been loved.

Granted, there are lying cheating jerks out there who only say those things just to get what they wanted, but let's just not go there, for Hell already have a special place for them I bet :-"

So anyway,

as cliche as this may sound,

'tis better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.

:)

Out Of Goodbyes.

I think by now you would know that I hate changes.

I hate changes as much as I hate cigarette smokes.

You know how serious that is.

People leaving me is one of the changes I hate the most.

I like things to stay the way they are forever.

I want people to stay the same forever.

On my first day of kindergarten, I somehow went into the wrong classroom. I entered the 4yr olds, when I was 5 at the time. Half way through the day, the teachers must have noticed, and they took me away from my bestfriend that I only knew for less than 3 hours, but I went kicking and screaming just the same 0_0

Anyway.

I have a feeling that a lot of changes is coming my way in the near future.

A lot of goodbyes to be said.

Promises to be made.

I'm so used to life here for 5 years I'm not sure what I'm gonna do once I'm back home.

I'm already too attached to my friends here, that I'm gonna be so lost once I'm away from them.

"We gonna have to make new friends mak."

"Dang I'm too old for that."

So.

I do hate changes.

I don't respond well to them.

I get very emotional.

Very.

Please you,

Be patient with me?

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Aidilfitri.

it's comforting to know that i'm not that hopeless in the kitchen anyway.

that i do inherit some of my mom's cooking genes, walaupun tak banyak :D

kalau stakat a decent hari raya feast tu, no hal lah ;)

Thanks For The Memories.

"On this day 5 years back, I was 19 years old, set out into the world for the first time.

On this day 5 years back, I was at the airport, saying my goodbyes to my loved ones.

On this day 5 years back, I thought 5 years is a really, really long time.

On this day 5 years back, I turned, and there you were.

On this day 5 years back, I thought you'd always be there..."

So it's our 5th year anniversary today! Im telling you A LOT has happened in the past 5 years, and I mean A whole LOT. Let me tell u some of them:

- My cousin, Zalina went away to UK to further her studies.

- My cousin, Ammani went away to Sydney to further his studies.

- My brother, Firas went away to US to further his studies.

- Zalina came back for good after FINISHING her studies.

- My dad got hospitalized in 2007.

- My mom got hospitalized twice for minor surgeries.

- I got hospitalized once for Hepatitis A.

- A couple of my cousins got married.

- A couple of close friends got engaged.

- My bestfriend Sabrina is getting married this September.

- I've had 5 birthdays here.

- A lot of my friends have already graduated.

- A lot of my friends have already started work.

- My best friend Farah Hanani is now a doctor.

- My aunty gave birth TWICE to beautiful little boys, Yassin and Muhammad.

- And of course a couple of heartbreaks here and there too.

I'm telling you, in just 5 years time, a lot can happen. People can change, promises can be broken, lies can be told, hearts can be hurt.

So how did I manage to survive living here for 5 whole years you ask? Well here's how, I think.

1. First of all God blessed me with a loving and caring family, who bought me tickets to go back home as often as I can, and they also came by here a few times.

2. Then God blessed me with friends here whom I truly love and appreciate everything they have done for me. Every laughter shared, every shopping trips, every vacation took together, every cravings fulfilled;) You guys kept me sane :) oh and God blessed me with this house whom I get to share with for 3 years with my bestie~ :)

3. God blessed me with best friends in Malaysia who were there giving me endless support. God blessed me with u. God blessed me with the weekly emails. God blessed me with a reason to come home to.

4. God blessed me with all those wonderful people I met while travelling alone in this country. There's pakcik Bandung who helped me get a place to stay. Pakcik Jakarta who sent me to the airport in the middle of the night. And pakcik Birthday, who treated us all to dinner :) maybe I do have that lost puppy dog face on sometimes:-"

5. And then, God blessed me with love for a couple of years :) God blessed me with your phone calls and love letters and parcels and your trips to Jogja :) I can't thank you enough.

6. Somewhere along the way God blessed us with Rempah Asia :D the closest to Malaysian food that we can get. A place for us to hang out, especially Sunday mornings :)

7. God blessed us with Parsley. Heaven knows just how much money we Malaysian spent on food there, sampai they can tear the whole place down to build a whole new one :)) they should call us to officiate the new building nanti :-"

8. God blessed us with Air Asia having flights from Jogja to KL, so that we dont have to go through Solo anymore :)

9. Not to forget Amplaz. God blessed us with that mall yang dah survived earthquakes and a fire incident too :))

10. God blessed us with internet (JMN, SMART, FLASH, etc.) Although line macam sampah most of the time, but at least we get to stay connected with our family and friends back home.

So that is how I managed to survive living here for 5 years. Ofcourse things aren't alwayssunshine-y and rainbow-y here. To think bout the things we have to deal with over the years such as the st*pid international programme, immigration, earthquakes, volcano eruption, outstation to sucky places, not so nice doctors, groupmates from heyl, failing exams, being hospitalized for a lot of different diseases, etc. But together, we survived.

So here's to my batchmates, Bachelor in Medical Sciences class of 2006 Gadjah Mada University,

thanks for the memories and may we cherish every single one of it. Cheers!

I Do.

If there's one thing that I've learned from all of this its:

in taking the next step in a relationship, it is important that the guy feels that he is ready to be married. The girl can gently steer the relationship towards that direction but the idea, the decision, should come from the guy first. Because i think that its okei if a woman is not ready, she'll have her husband to depend on anyway. but if the guy is not ready, most probably there will be some lying, and cheating, and regretting, and the whole vicious cycle will repeat itself until he's really really ready.

and owh, do not submit to peer pressure.

so to you out there, mr-i-don't-mind-making-my-wife-milo -at-3oclock-in-the-morning a.k.a mr-i-think-its-cute-that-my-wife-likes-to-whine-when-life-doesn't-go-her-way a.k.a mr-i- like -it- when- my- wife-turns-into-a-giant-attention-seeker-when-she's-sick,

i'm ready when u are :)

Never Again.

Its amazing how fast your feelings can change.

Like when you're watching a movie. From the very first scene you've got your heart set on the hero. Dah la comel, tinggi, kacak, bergaya plak tu. Then you get to the middle of the story where the hero can't be with the one he loves for some dramatic reason, and you just cant help but cry to see him hurt so bad. and the feeling you have for him grow stronger. and then tiba2 came the scene where the one he loves opens the door to find him in bed with someone else, and just like that all this feelings you have for him crash to the floor into a million pieces. you'll say cis bedeb, to think that i wasted my tears over you...you...you....sonofastarfish. Then all of a sudden all that love turns into hatred.

It really is amazing how fast your feelings can change, kan.

Wild World.

"Oh baby baby it's a wild world,

It's hard to get by just upon a smile"

Something scares the stars out of me lately. It's the fact that:

You can raise a child with every love in the world, u can raise them in every way right, you can raise them strict or raise them like a hippy, you can mold them to be just like you or you can brought them up any way you want to. You can do the very best you can, yet at 24 if they decide to walk into a bar and get drunk, or get themselves a tattoo, or runaway with a men they hardly knew, you wouldn't even have a clue about it, and get this, there's nothing you can do to stop it.

You can give a child just about everything he wants, shoes, toys, clothes, expensive gadgets, trip around the world, you can make sacrifices, you can give them everything you have and find more to give, you can stay up the whole night nursing them when they were little, you can shower them with gifts and attention, yet at 18 if they decide to raise their voice to you, hurt your feelings and make you cry, well they would do it without even thinking twice.

And it applies to every kind of relationship too. Be it between families, friends or even lovers. You can give your heart and soul to someone, do just about anything they want you to, you can bend over backwards to help them in every possible way you can imagine, you can embrace them as one of your own, you give them only the best and nothing less, but tomorrow if they decide to walk away from u, they would, without even a backward glance.

It's a cruel, cruel world out there people.

I'm hiding under my comfy blankie until the world makes sense again.

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Can I Trust You With My Heart?

I think I understand now what Harry meant when he told Sally,

"When you realized you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." From the movie When Harry Met Sally.

It's nice when you have a picture of someone in your mind when you think about marriage. About who you would want to grow old with.

But it's even much nicer,

to have that person that you are picturing of in your mind, have a picture of you in his mind too :)

by Travis Tritt

When you meet that certain someone

You've been searching hard to find

It's a new love full of passion

That can sometimes make u blind

I don't mind being swept away

If I know right from the start

So before we go much further

Can I trust u with my heart?

In the times we've spent together

I have learned to trust in you

So many things you've given me

Before I even asked you to

But reality and romance

Can sometimes fall apart

So what I really need to know is

Can i trust u with my heart?

Can I cast my cares upon you?

Can you stand the heavy load?

Can I count on u to walk me

Down that long and winding road?

If you promise me these simple things

I can guarantee

You can always count on me.

When two hearts solely surrender

And are sworn to understand

It completes a perfect union

Between a woman and a man

So please don't misunderstand me

I dont want to go to far

Without knowing just one answer

Can I trust you with my heart?

Yesterday.

"Who do you think you are,
Running round leaving scars..."
- Christina Perri -

Looking back, if I could choose the best age to be in, it would be when I was 5 years old, when life was all about cartoons and candies.

Back then, I had no bad thoughts about anyone.

I wanted to be friends with everyone.

I played, I laughed, I drew, I coloured.

I ran, I fell, I cried, I got better.

I wasn't paranoid, or prejudiced.

Nor was I depressed. I was just naive.

I even shared my bekal roti that my mom made for me with a boy I hardly knew.

Wait, maybe that was when I made my first mistake,

my first wrong turn,

which brought me to where I am today.

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Save The Last Dance For Me.

Tiba-tiba tringat this one korean or japanese series i watched a couple of years back. It was about this girl who has a crush on this boy, and she pretended to be a boy just to get herself into that all boys school the guy was in. Eventually another guy fell for this girl (typical i know) and there's this one scene the girl was crying because the boy she likes hurt her feelings (i know, i know) and the guy who likes her saw this (obviously right) and quietly hugged her with a "ces lelaki macam tu jugak yang ko nak, aku kan ada" look on his face and lastly he said macho-ly to her,

"Depend on me. I dont care who you love, i love you. Just depend on me."





Blurgh.

She Believes In Me.

by Ronan Keating

While she lays sleeping,
I stay out late at night and play my songs
Sometimes all the nights can be so long
And its good when I finally make it home, all alone.

While she lays dreaming,
I touch her face across the silver light,
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky,
And she wakes up to my kiss and I say it's alright,
And I hold her tight.

And she believes in me,
I'll never know just what she sees in me,
I told her someday if she was my girl,
I could change the world, with my song,
I was wrong.
And she has faith in me,
And so I go on trying faithfully,
Forever in my heart she will remain,
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way...

While she lays waiting,
I asked myself why do I hurt her so,
What called me on this long and lonely road
Why dont I turn around and head back home, where I belong.

While she lays crying,
Because she knows my heart is ripped in two,
I'm torn between the things that I should do,
She deserves it all, and I'd give it if I could,
God her love is true.

Momma Said There'll Be Days Like This.

"I remember you
Driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes u laugh
When u know you're bout to cry
I know your favorite songs
You tell me all your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me."
-taylor swift-

You know you're a medical student about to lose it when you woke up in the middle of the night with a sudden sharp pain to your lower right abdomen, and the first thought that came to your mind is
"Oh no, I can't afford to have appendicitis right now, I have case reports and exams this week"

and just like all those sleepless night u had when your heart is killing u,

you lay there quietly in the still of the night,

hoping to God that the pain would just go away.

Stupid Cupid.

"I need to hear those words you used to tell me,
From way back when we were just friends,
Before this love affair began..."
-Toni Braxton-

I don't know what the fuss is all about. Why people are making a big deal out of Valentine's day. Apart from Muslims are not supposed to celebrate it for religious reasons (thanks to various articles about it posted everywhere, if only people are as enthusiastic about every other important issues too and not only Vday, the world would be a better place) I have a problem with the motive behind the celebration itself.

A day to celebrate love? Shouldn't love be celebrated every day?

Okei it's fine if you want to dedicate a special day for it, for me i think husbands and wives all over the world should have their own special day for that. It could be the first time you go out on a date together, or something special that only both of you know bout it, or it could be a monthly thing or simply when u kiss your husband one morning and say hey i think we should celebrate our love today.

I think that would be less cliche, more original, and very exciting, no?

And anyway, shouldn't 14th of March makes more sense to celebrate love? You know,
14.3,
i love you.


blurgh.

Any Other World.

its nice to see friends visiting friends who is studying overseas (read: Tokyo, London, Ireland, Australia) because now is the time, you can save up on accommodation and you got tour guides for free too.

its sad to know that no one wants to come over here but that's totally understandable because hey,
I don't wanna be here either :(

Love Letters In The Sand.

Things to do on a holiday :

This is my big box of memories. Okei fine its not that big. But still, this is where i keep alllll the birthday cards, the Raya cards, the goodluck cards, the letters, and the postcards that I got over the years.

I even have cards dated as far back as my school years, which was like donkey years ago :-"

So hari ni holiday, after spending quality time with Mr. Bed, i thought of going through my treasure box. Sitting on the floor, with Celine Dion singing, and the rain drizzling outside, it was just like in the movies :-"

It would have been much nicer to have a grandchild sitting beside me though, so that I could show him/her some of these stuff Granny had all these years and say something like this (in Texan slang if u please) "You remember your uncle X?....No, no, not the one with the Ferarri... Yes the fat bald unsuccessful one who dropped by last Raya... Grandmama used to have a huge schoolgirl crush on him last time. He gave me this greetin' card, right before he broke my heart.... Well, yeah, it may be hard to believe but he used to be a real hottie back then."

or something like that ;)



This was a postcard I got from my Aunty in Germany, dated 2006. She said that the picture on this card, is just how she always think of me when I decided to become a doctor :))



I treasure every little thing. What can I say, I'm a sentimental girl. So you can be rest assured that whatever little thing you gave me, If you mean the world to me, I would keep it forever. I have movie stubs for "Superman Returns" from four years ago. I have the sweet letter my sister wrote to me when I had to go away for boarding school. I have the little note Nabilah wrote to me when I had to come here. I have short stories I wrote and can't even remember I did. Maybe I'll post some of it up. I still have the bracelet tag when I was hospitalized in 2008. The receipt for the 22 doughnuts. The pamphlet and the ONE red glove from Bromo, which was my first road trip with friends.


But above all,
I still have your letters...:)

I'm a Lil Bit Country, You're a Lil Bit Rock and Roll.

Even if you have the right ingredients to make a perfect cake, it does not necessarily mean that you gonna have, a perfect cake.

You can have everything that you need under the sun, with the right amount of it too.

You can have the finest flour from Florence, you're comfortable, you can have the freshest eggs right out of a Kansas farm, you're always together, you can have the darkest chocolate from Belgium, you share the sweetest moments, and yet that does not mean that you have got it.

That is just not enough. You need something to hold it all together. You need a recipe, you need chemistry, and most importantly you need a little something called destiny.

Without that,
you'd just be two separate individuals,
with the complete ingredient,
to make a perfect couple.

Break Even.

A contestant for American Idol 2011.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elaXeN15isM&feature=topvideos


Its an eye opener.
As though life slapped me in the face and said,
"so you still think you're the one with problems?"

dah la,
never will I fret about petty things.
never will I whine about insignificant stuff.
never will I bother with foolish problems, or people.

p/s: its comforting to know that there are still some gentlemen left in this world kan. maybe there's hope after all :))

Rush, Rush.

Why are we in such a hurry over everything?

Like seriously, where's the fire?

Maybe it's because manusia tak kan puas hati with what they have.

Bila belum sekolah, tak sabar sangat nak sekolah.
Bila dah sekolah, tak sabar sangat nak habes.
Bila belum kerja, tak sabar sangat nak kerja.
Bila dah kerja, tak sabar sangat nak....pencen pulak eh? :D

Maybe because we are brought up in the kind of environment where people are always asking for more out of you.

When u don't have a boyfriend, they'll nag you to find one.
When u already have one, they'll keep asking you when's the big day.
When u're married, they'll psycho u into having a baby.
When u have one, they would want to see more.

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Why can't we learn to live in the moment that we are in? I mean those time will eventually come insyaAllah. We will eventually work, and we will eventually have a family. But this time that we are in right now, this phase of our lives that we are going through right now, it will not come again. Shouldn't we be savoring each moment?

Enjoy student life, before working life starts. Because when it starts, it will be for ever.
Enjoy our single life, before our married life begins. Because when it begins,
we pray to God that it will be for ever, too :)

I'll Be Seeing You.

My dearest Ellie,

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it is over between us. I'm not bitter anymore because I know what we had was real.

And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love.

The best kind of love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more. That plants fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given to me and that's what i hope to give to you forever.

I love you, I'll be seeing you.

Noah.




from the movie, The Notebook (2004).

One In A Million.

So i was watching Australia's Junior Master Chef on TV and i was soooo amazed by the little contestants! It's practically the same as the original masterchef but this time the contestants are aged between 8 to 12 years!

Everyone looking so cute, gigi pun x tumbuh habes lagi. The boys were looking so innocent, belum ada niat nak break any girls heart lagi time ni. The girls were just so lovely, oblivious to the fact that 20 years from now they'll be crying on the bedroom floor because some jerk said i love u but he lied muahaha :))

anyway,

I really enjoyed watching how good they were at cooking. and bukan stakat masak nasi and goreng telur okei, they were cooking complicated dishes. one that involved squids and prawns and even rabbits!
the youngest was this 8 yr old chubby little girl. she made a chicken dish! and although she didn't get through she didn't even cry or stomped around or threw the kuali or anything, like those so-called grownups in american idol [-x. in fact, she just smiled and looked so cute u just wanna pinch her cheeks.

if this bunch of kids can do it, then anyone can too, don't u think. everyone has a little chef hiding inside of them somewhere.

so ofcourse, this made me realized something, as always :D

It made me realized that maybe, just maybe it's not too late for me too, you know.


Not too late for me to.....

....pray that i'll have children of my own one day who's great at cooking :-"

Money Honey.

perasan tak, when you're running realllllly low in cash, in other words, you're broke, masa ni la semua benda yang penting nak habes. example:

1. battery jam. like there's no other time for the jam tu mati kan.
2. ink printer. when u're broke, suddenly there's a lot of stuff to print, and whooppedeedee, ur printer chose now to run out of ink.
3. ubat gigi :-"
4. air/aqua :D
5. cooking gas.
6. and somehow, the frequency of you getting hungry gets higher too when ure broke huh, haha okei maybe thats just psychology :D

seriously, when u have the money, everything seems to be just fine and dandy. it's a conspiracy theory i tell u.

(well actually the cold hard truth that we just don't want to accept, or just can't get it through our thick heads (or just mine, probably) is to berjimat time senang for time yang susah di kemudian hari :D )

i wish i could tell u lesson learnt here, but i know myself too well. in 2 months time, this whole shenanigans gonna repeat itself 0_0





cepat la 26th of Januaryyyyyyyy.

This One's For The Girls.

"Dearest Daddy,
How are you doing................................................................................................
...............................................................................................................................................
.................................................................
Please daddy, I need your advise. But please don't tell me to not think about it. Because as corny as this may sound, asking me to stop thinking about it is just as impossible as asking the sun to stop shining, or the rain to stop falling.

Love,
Your Broken Little Girl."


"Daughter dearest,
I am doing okay........................................................................................................
................................................................................................................................................
................................................................
Let me tell you something about the sun and the rain. For your information the sun does not always shine in the north pole and it does not rain in Southern California. So you see, nothing is impossible darling daughter. So promise me that you will forget about it, look on the bright side and be strong because I know for a fact that you are ....................................................
.............................................................................................................................................

Love,
Your Loving Daddy."

Please Be Careful With My Heart.

why i think motorcycles are dangerous:

it doesnt matter if you're careful, if others are not, you're bound to be in an accident jugak.

masalahnya ada je org yang nak buat benda2 aneh time bawak motor. yang nak SMS la, yang nak sembang dgn motor sebelah la, yang nak bawak cermin tingkap la, yang nak garu kaki la, yang keluar simpang x tengok kiri kanan macam nama dia binti simpang tu plak [-x
serious rasa nak emo, because of your own foolishness its not just your life yang at stake, other people's too.

anyway what im trying to say is that, no matter how careful you are with your heart, kalau orang nak langgar tu dia langgar jugak la.



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Ya Sudahlah.

i was reading wani ardy's blog yesterday, and came across something that she said that made me feel better. i guess she is going through a rough patch in her life right now and what she wrote was something like she's not going to give up, because today she woke up breathing, so god must have intended for her to still keep on going.

that's just soooo positive and it got me to thinking on how true that is.

i've always liked her blog. the way she writes, it's like she's voicing out my inner thoughts sometimes.

i really wish her well.

"you left me standing here alone with 6 years worth of memories,
what the hell am I supposed to do with it all on my own?"
-CS-